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The Importance of Openly Talking About Hallucinations & Delusions in Parkinson’s

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Psychosis can be a frightening word. Understanding what it means in Parkinson’s disease (PD) and how a person may experience symptoms can ease the fear and stigma surrounding this medical term. Hallucinations and delusions can be common in PD. Openly discussing these symptoms can help your healthcare team discover the best management strategies. Learn the different ways people experience these symptoms and how to address them.

This article is based on Do you see what I see? Hallucinations and Delusions in Parkinson's, a Parkinson’s Foundation Expert Briefing webinar presented by Megan E. Gomez, PhD, Staff Psychologist, Tibor Rubin VA Medical Center.

Shining a Light on Psychosis

If you live with Parkinson’s, some of your most challenging symptoms might be seemingly invisible to others. Known as non-movement symptoms, these can impact mood, sleep, thinking and more. Some are easier to talk about than others.

Not everyone with PD will have hallucinations or delusions, but up to 50% of people with Parkinson's can experience symptoms over the course of the disease. Studies show up to 90% of people do not proactively talk to their doctor about it, meaning the actual number may be higher.

It’s important to know that you are not alone. If you feel, hear or sense things that aren’t there, you may feel self-conscious, embarrassed or even scared to share your experiences. These feelings may lead to isolation and avoidance of care. While it can take courage to talk about your experience, rely on your doctor, neurologist or movement disorders specialist to be familiar with these symptoms.

In Parkinson’s, your doctor might use the term psychosis to describe anything from visual hallucinations caused by slight misperceptions to complex, detailed delusions: seeing things that aren't there or believing things that are not true. These tricks of the brain can seem like minor inconveniences, but often have a big impact on you and your loved ones. These symptoms can stem from Parkinson’s brain changes, medication, dementia or delirium — sudden hallucinations or delusions that can signal a medication or health issue.

Unaddressed, hallucinations and delusions can reduce quality of life for people with Parkinson's and their care partners. These can cause lack of sleep, increase stress and create fall risks or other safety issues. Symptoms can also increase hospitalization risk, care costs and need for long-term care.

Other medical conditions that can cause psychosis include:

  • Bipolar disorder
  • Brain tumor
  • Depression
  • Dementia
  • Lupus
  • Malignant lung neoplasm
  • Multiple sclerosis
  • Schizophrenia
  • Steroid treatment in autoimmune disorders
  • Stroke

Gradual Changes in Perception

Symptoms of Parkinson’s disease psychosis vary in severity. In early PD stages, you may be aware that what you are experiencing is not really there. You might lose that insight as Parkinson’s progresses. This happens slowly and gradually over time.

Psychosis symptoms can include:

  • Illusions or misperceptions: Misperceiving what is there — for example, a coat and hat on a rack might appear to be a person or a shadow may appear to be a mouse.
  • False sense of presence: The sense that someone is looking over your shoulder, in the room or lying next to you in bed, but when you look, no one is there.
  • False sense of something moving past: The awareness of something fleeting past or moving in the periphery, or sense something darting across the floor or someone walking through the hallway.
  • Hallucinations and delusions: Seeing or believing things that are not true, which can cause a range of feelings from undisturbed or anxious to agitated or frightened.

Types of Hallucinations

Some hallucinations recur with frequency, while others happen just once. Hallucinations are more common in people with sleep or cognitive problems or depression. While increasing medications can sometimes put people at risk for the onset of hallucinations, most people with Parkinson's will experience hallucinations after 10 years of diagnosis.

Hallucinations are less likely to occur when someone is engaged in an activity. They are more likely to happen when a person has vision problems, is alone or at night. Understanding how people with Parkinson's might experience these can help reduce the stigma.

Types of hallucinations include:

  • Visual: Seeing people or animals that are living or deceased.
  • Auditory: Hearing things like voices or music.
  • Olfactory: Smelling things that aren’t there, such as chemicals burning or gasoline.
  • Tactile: Feeling as if something is on or underneath the skin, which might cause scratching.

Visual hallucinations can seem as if you are having a vivid dream, despite knowing you are awake — seeing distorted, cartoon-like strangely colored animals and people, bugs, figures hovering on the ground. People have reported seeing fairies or colonies of tiny people. Some people find these entertaining to watch, while others find it frightening.

Common visual hallucinations for people with PD can include:

  • Seeing someone sitting in your home, possibly in your living room or at your dining table. It can range from a friendly presence like a visitor or to the distressing sense of an intruder.
  • Some veterans with PD have reported seeing elaborate, detailed military bootcamps outside, with a drill sergeant and service members.
  • People in cities and urban areas may see out-of-place wildlife, such as deer or skunks.

Auditory hallucinations can cause distraction or poor sleep. People may think neighbors are doing yard work or having a party in the middle of the night. Sounds may seem to come from the attic, basement or walls.

Understanding Delusions

Delusions can distress the person with Parkinson's and their loved ones, sometimes causing isolation, embarrassment, fear, suspicion or jealousy, or resulting in anger or violence toward a care partner. Delusions can create safety or legal problems. Care partners, who may recognize psychosis symptoms before the person with PD, should share these with their loved one’s doctor.

Though delusions are not reality based, they often seem real to the person experiencing them. These often have common themes, including:

  • Persecution: Believing someone is trying to deceive or bring harm. You may suspect a trusted person wants to steal from you or family is plotting against you. Some people suspect their caregiver is trying to poison them and become suspicious of medication or food.
  • Jealousy: Believing a spouse or partner is being unfaithful. Othello syndrome is the false certainty of and preoccupation with a partner’s imagined infidelity.
  • Reference: Feeling like a song or a TV show is speaking directly to you. This may feel like something you want to act on.

Other forms can include:

  • Fregoli delusion: Believing different people are actually a single person changing their appearance or in disguise.
  • Cotard’s syndrome: Thinking you are dead, decaying, do not really exist or your blood or internal organs are missing.
  • Capgras syndrome: Believing an identical imposter has replaced a friend, spouse, family member or pet.

Delirium

Seek medical attention if you experience a sudden change as they are not typical of Parkinson’s. When hallucinations or delusions begin within hours or days, it can be due to changing, stopping, increasing or decreasing a medication, or can signal another medical issue, such as:

  • urinary tract infection or pneumonia
  • dehydration
  • substance withdrawal
  • high or low blood sugar
  • low blood pressure
  • surgery or hospitalization
  • organ failure

Managing the Impact

There are several ways to help a loved one experiencing PD psychosis. Find the best methods that work for you. These techniques can help manage the impact:

  • A stable, calm, familiar environment is essential for someone experiencing psychosis.
  • Keep a routine.
  • Try to keep a well-lit, clutter-free home — this can minimize visual misperception, hallucinations and injuries.
  • Use a nightlight in the bedroom. Unfamiliar environments might worsen symptoms.
  • Offer reassurance that the person with PD is safe, loved and symptoms are not their fault. This can the reduce fear and shame around hallucinations and delusions.
  • During an episode, do not argue or rationalize. Leave the room if necessary.
  • Orient your loved one with calendars, photos or messages on post-its.
  • Remove items that may cause a safety issue, such as area rugs. Explore our home safety page for more.

Focusing on good sleep habits, getting enough exercise and seeking out stress management strategies are vital for people experiencing hallucinations and delusions and those who care for them. Care partners also need adequate rest and breaks from care to burnout risk.

Your doctor can recommend safe management strategies or adjust your medications. Many antipsychotic medications used to treat psychosis should not be used in PD — they can act on dopamine receptors and worsen Parkinson’s symptoms.

While not for everyone, Pimavanserin (Nuplazid®) is a newer antipsychotic that does not block dopamine. It is approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) specifically for the treatment of Parkinson's disease psychosis. Other medications considered safe options to treat psychosis in PD include Quetiapine (Seroquel®) and Clozapine (Clozaril®). Learn more about medications used to treat psychosis.

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Detecting Early Parkinson’s with a Wearable Movement-Tracking Device

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According to a new study, data from smart devices may be able to detect Parkinson’s disease years before a diagnosis.

What if a smartwatch could detect Parkinson’s disease (PD) before you knew something was wrong? A new study in Nature Medicine used digital movement sensors, the kind of technology found in smart devices, to detect Parkinson’s disease years before a clinical diagnosis.

By the time a person is diagnosed with Parkinson’s, they have already lost 50% to 70% of dopamine neurons. Their brain cells involved in memory, movement, motivation, mood and attention have degenerated. Due to this reality, researchers are eager to find accurate, affordable and non-invasive tools to help detect Parkinson’s sooner.

The Methods

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For this study, researchers used smart devices with a movement tracker to collect information on participants’ movement and activity levels. The study assessed years of data points to find patterns that point to Parkinson’s. Researchers utilized data from a randomly selected group of 103,712 people participating in the UK Biobank, a study of more than 500,000 people aged 40–69 years with ongoing follow-up of clinical status. They used a wrist-worn accelerometer, which can detect movement and rate of speed changes (acceleration), to study average acceleration for each hour of the day, as well as sleep patterns, over a seven-day period.

The Results

Reduction in acceleration can be seen before PD diagnosis. Over the course of two years, 273 participants were diagnosed with Parkinson’s. Another 196 people received a new PD diagnosis more than two years after they collected the data. Remarkably, in the 196 people who received a PD diagnosis after the study, researchers saw a reduction in their average daytime acceleration several years before their PD diagnosis, during what is known as the prodromal stage (where early signs are present but no clinical diagnosis has been made).

No other diagnosis shows a similar pattern. Parkinson’s disease was the only diagnosis associated with a reduction in movement before (the prodromal stage) and after diagnosis. This reduction did not correlate with other diagnoses, including Alzheimer’s, dystonia (a sustained or repetitive muscle twisting, spasm or cramp) or osteoarthritis.

Sleep disturbances are more marked in PD than in other disorders. Using the movement data, researchers found reduced quality and duration of sleep both before and after PD diagnosis compared to people without PD. People diagnosed with PD slept fewer hours overall, had fewer consecutive hours of sleep and slept more frequently during the day than both people without PD and those in the prodromal stage. Sleep deterioration was observed in other diagnoses, but not to the same extent as seen in PD.

Acceleration data predicts prodromal PD. To test whether prodromal PD could be predicted based on the data, researchers created a model using age, sex and average acceleration. They successfully identified cases of Parkinson’s before diagnosis from the UK Biobank population. This model was better at predicting PD than a model that relied on other PD markers, including genetics, lifestyle (such as smoking or heavy alcohol use) and blood biomarkers.

Acceleration data predicts time to diagnosis. Finally, researchers leveraged the data to build a model to accurately predict the amount of time until a PD diagnosis. They also found that their model could predict the probability of not receiving a Parkinson’s diagnosis in the following several years.

While several studies have shown that changes in movement (including the use of digital gait measures) can be associated with prodromal PD, this is the first study to show the potential usefulness of accelerometers in detecting PD years before a clinical diagnosis.

Highlights

  • Wrist-worn movement trackers could detect changes in average acceleration years before a PD diagnosis, during the prodromal stage.
  • Only participants with PD experienced a reduction in acceleration both before and following a diagnosis, suggesting this measure is disease-specific and can potentially be used in early identification for people likely to be diagnosed with PD.
  • The accelerometry model could predict who would develop PD, and when the diagnosis might be expected.

What does this mean?

This study shows that the reduction in acceleration is PD-specific and can be detected years before a clinical PD diagnosis. This may mean that in the future, doctors may be able to leverage activity data from a smart device to diagnose Parkinson’s disease earlier.

However, more studies are needed before smart device data become a widely available diagnostic tool. Overall, more research is needed to help clinicians detect and confirm an early Parkinson’s diagnosis.

What do these findings mean to the people with PD right now?

People who are concerned that they may be experiencing Parkinson’s symptoms should talk to a healthcare provider.

Learn More

The Parkinson’s Foundation believes in empowering the Parkinson’s community through education. Learn more about PD and the topics in this article through our below resources, or by calling our free Helpline at 1-800-4PD-INFO (1-800-473-4636) for answers to your Parkinson’s questions.

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My PD Story

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Patt Westbrock

I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease (PD) 30 years ago. For me, it started as an achiness. My hands were in a lot of pain and stiff, but they weren’t trembling yet. I started looking for answers and one day, a doctor walked in the room, looked at me and said, “you have Parkinson’s” which I thought was a pretty bold statement for never having seen him before, but he was right.

After that appointment, I cried the whole way home. I was overwhelmed with questions. What does this mean for me? What does it mean for my spouse and my family?

I did not find any peace in those questions, and I did not know what to tell anybody. So, I kept it to myself. I had Parkinson’s for 15 years before I told anybody, including my kids. I was a clinical nurse, and I worried about how sharing the news would affect my job, social life and family life.

I did a lot of overthinking and watched my behavior. I held on to the things I could control until PD made it impossible. Any uncontrolled movement sent me spinning, wondering if anyone noticed. Part of my job as a nurse and diabetes educator required me to travel to different clinics to teach people how to manage their diabetes. When I was teaching the classes, my mouth would get dry, and I could hear changes in my voice. It was getting harder to hide. I just wanted to look and feel like everyone else around me, but once I hit the 15-year mark, I couldn’t hide it anymore.

When teaching those classes, I told participants they needed to focus on what they could control and the positive things they could do to manage their disease and I realized I needed to do the same thing for myself. I decided I wasn’t going to focus on the negatives of having Parkinson’s and I was going to do everything I could to slow its progression and improve my health.

Staying active is vital, and I made sure I exercised for at least 45 minutes to an hour every day.

I started to tell people in my life about my diagnosis, including my kids. That was hard and I didn’t want anyone to look at me and only see the disease. My kids were shocked, worried about me and wondered if it was hereditary. I think it took them some time to digest the news, but if anything, it has driven them to offer more help to me and my husband. They have been so supportive. My friends were also shocked. Some of them were angry I kept it from them, but I did what was best for me at the time.

Now, openly living with Parkinson’s is just part of life. As one of my friends says every time he watches me take a handful of pills, “better living through chemistry.” And in my world, that works.

I also want to share some of the things people don’t usually think about when they hear “Parkinson’s disease.” There are so many little and big ways this disease affects you.

  • It makes your eyes dry. I use daily eye drops and my doctor recommended I wrap plastic wrap around my head to keep my eyes moist. All I need is a CPAP machine to look like Darth Vader when I go to bed.
  • It affects your voice. My voice crackles now and I start to sound like Mae West.
  • It makes opening bags difficult. Those plastic bags at the grocery store are impossible to open. So is a bag of potato chips.
  • It changes the way you eat. I must have salads chopped extra fine or I end up wearing them. And do you know how hard it is to eat peas with a fork?
  • It makes putting on makeup a small feat. If I’m not careful, I’ll end up looking like Lucille Ball, painted all over, or a two-year-old with a coloring book. And put on mascara at your own risk!
  • It means small tasks are more difficult. Mending clothes, putting on jewelry, decorating a cake and buttoning buttons or pulling up zippers can feel impossible.
  • It affects how I interact with technology. I have an iPad, but I haven’t been able to master a lot of things on it because tremors cause me to touch the same button two or three times. Same with the cash machine, where punching in my PIN number wrong has caused me to lose my card.

These things are just a matter of fact for people with Parkinson’s. These little annoyances add up and change your life. I have found ways to deal with them, and there are worse things than living with Parkinson’s, but some days, it moves to the top of the list. Which is why I got involved with the Parkinson’s Foundation. I have met many people through them, and they have made a lot of information available and have excellent resources, like Centers of Excellence, for people to receive better care. The work the Parkinson’s Foundation is doing is offering hope to those affected by PD — and everyone needs hope.

But we need to do more. We need more research so we can find new treatments and a cure for Parkinson’s. We need to make sure everyone can access the best care and find support through the Foundation’s resources.

My friends ask me how they can help, and I say the best thing they can do is make a donation. We need to invest in research so we can find a cure. We need to provide support for people with PD and their care partners. The Parkinson’s Foundation is doing this work, but they need our help. We all need to do our part and support this work. No one should have to live like this.

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Expert Briefing: Hallucinations and Delusions in Parkinson's

November 8, 2023

Psychosis can be a frightening word. In Parkinson’s disease, the medical definition of psychosis usually starts with mild symptoms that can have a big impact on quality of life. Psychosis can vary from severe confusion to seeing things that aren’t there, to believing things that are not true. Find out what causes these symptoms, how people with Parkinson’s might experience them and management strategies.

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My PD Story

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Frank O’Mara

I am Frank O’Mara, and I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease (PD) in 2009. I was 48 years old.

As a kid I dreamed of being an explorer. My father took me to a pub called the South Pole, which was owned by Tom Crean, a veteran of polar exploration at the turn of the last century. Looking at the worn-out memorabilia displayed in that shabby pub in county Kerry, I resolved to one day make a trip to the pole. 

In my teenage years I had more conventional ambitions, many of them I achieved. I became a three-time Olympian, a World Champion and broke a four-minute mile. My father finished school at 13 years of age, so I wanted an education. I have two graduate degrees. I worked for 14 years in the wireless industry and became a senior executive for a Fortune 200 Company. I had disappointments along the way too. Both successes and failures were formative.

Then my familiar world was turned upside down. The company I worked for was bought by a bigger rival, and the very next day I had the first symptom of a mystery disease. I was in severe denial. Eventually I accepted the reality that at 48 years of age I had Parkinson’s disease. I continued to work for a few years relying on trusted associates and various ruses and schemes until I could no longer hide the symptoms.

Contrary to a typical prognosis of young-onset Parkinson’s, my condition deteriorated much quicker than expected. I couldn’t walk, could barely talk, experienced extreme restlessness, suffered from debilitating and scary cramping and full-body tremors. I was in pitiful condition and relied heavily on my wife, family and friends to survive.

Deep brain stimulation (DBS) provided relief. Tiny holes were drilled through my skull, electrodes were implanted deep into my brain and attached to a pulse generator in my chest. This allowed voltage to constantly run to my brain, which serves to dampen the faulty signaling caused by Parkinson’s. 

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It took two years, but my condition improved sufficiently enough to make a trip to the Antarctic. I joined a National Geographic voyage from Ushuaia, Argentina, made the two-day crossing of the Drake Passage and was at Elephant Island on the 100th Anniversary of Ernest Shackleton’s death. I even managed to complete two extreme hikes on the continent.

I still struggle with acceptance, and I know I can’t beat Parkinson’s. I have learned that if you fixate on future symptoms, you could be paralyzed with fear. You have to play the cards that you currently hold and not a hand you may be dealt later. 

In a book titled “Bend Don’t Break,” I recall experiences in my earlier days that prepared me for this hardship. Some were successes, many were failures but each help me cope today. Bend Don’t Break will be published in 2024.

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